I stand at the rear of a huge room in the lodge at the
Alpine Meadows Ski Resort. It is packed tight with people, sitting, standing,
some of them standing on chairs. This is the memorial service for ski patroller Bill Foster who, after nearly 30 years as a patroller at Alpine, died on the
job on December 24th.
I can’t see the speaker from where I am, but it doesn’t
matter. Even when I can’t understand his words, I can hear his emotion. There
are humorous stories to be shared, passionate stories, and personal ones as
well. When his voice cracks, I hear the tears streaming down his cheeks even if
I can’t see them. Tears spring to my own eyes.
I am here because my husband and many of my friends are ski
patrollers. Even though I’m not a patroller, I feel deeply connected to this
community. I feel the loss when I see the grief on the faces of my friends. And
I can’t help but stand there, listening to the grief of others, and wonder what
it would be like if it were someone from my own inner circle, if it were my
husband.
“I can’t even contemplate that,” a patroller friend told me
after the service when I confessed this thought to him. “I wouldn’t be able to
do my job if I did.”
I nod. This makes sense to me.
It occurs to me that it is difficult for those outside the
community to understand how complex and challenging the job of ski patrolling
is. Every day, patrollers are expected to perform at top level in a myriad of
different disciplines. Peoples’ lives literally depend on their work. They
analyze weather data and dig snow pits to determine the avalanche hazard. Most
patrollers are certified blasters so they can throw explosives to set of
avalanches before people arrive on the hill, thereby decreasing the risk that a
skier will get caught and buried in a slide. They are EMTs, giving emergency medical
care on the hill, often in challenging conditions. They are search and rescue
experts, moving quickly over varying terrain, using avalanche beacons, setting
up complex rope rescues, and training and handling search dogs. They are
masters of grunt work to get the hill set up safely – shoveling snow, setting
up rope lines and signs, moving tower pads. All the while, they are top notch
customer servants – answering questions and providing assistance to skiers at
the resort.
It also occurs to me that a great deal of what they do is
unrecognized by many of the people they’re there to keep safe.
On this evening, however, that feeling is quite the
opposite.
The ceremony ends and people rise from their seats, making
their way slowly to the edges of the room. I see one thing: an absolute ocean
of red. Everywhere I look, people wear red jackets, a large white cross
emblazoned on the back of each – the uniform of a ski patroller.
They have come from resorts near and distant to show their
support, their respect. I meet patrollers from all over California, from
Oregon, Utah, Canada. My husband tells me he just met a patroller from
Chamonix.
These men and women share something unique because they
spend their days doing the same things at different mountains all over the
world. While many people don’t understand how risky and how multi-faceted their
job is, they stand right now in a room full of people who absolutely get it.
Bill Foster made the ultimate sacrifice, and even if they have to shove that
thought to the depths of their minds in order to do their jobs, these
patrollers know they face the same risks he did every time they go out for
avalanche control or on a dangerous rescue. I know it, too.
All around me friends greet each other with hugs. There is
sadness, yes, but there are also smiles. The beer flows freely and the volume
in the room grows. A rock band takes the stage. I, too, greet friends I haven’t
seen in many months. We catch up on each others’ lives, happy to be together
but wishing for better circumstances. I look around for my husband and quickly
realize I will never find him with nearly everyone in the crowd wearing the
same jacket.
More than any other emotion tonight, I am struck by the
sense of community present, and I am humbled by it. I can’t think of many other
professions where people feel this connected simply because of what they do for
a living. I guess that’s because it’s one of those jobs that’s far more than
just a job.
Thank you, ski patrollers.
Gretchen, you brought tears to my eyes. I used to enjoy waking up to the echoing sound bombs, knowing a great powder day was ahead of me. Now I cringe.
ReplyDeleteI know exactly what you're saying, Liz!
DeleteThank you so much, this was beautiful. This is just what the Alpine Family needed. Just a beautiful recap, Bill will never be forgotten.
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Daniela